Behatilife Pluto Essential Oil

Beginning this Spiritual journey I was facing a lot of guilt, shame, and self-loathing. I was completely bogged with anger, pain, and trauma of times gone by that I didn't realize how deeply it pervaded my reality.

I was closing in, risking to lose all hope and aspirations for a brighter future. And I couldn't blame anyone, or at least not every single character.

I realized what I was up against, my own worst enemy. I decided to take a leap of faith and try something new. Try another tool to aid me in peeling back the layers. Commit to the process. Shave off the resentment & neglect that had so inspired a culmination of depression & anxiety.

But where does one look when taking back their own life and credibility?

I followed the Youtube channel, Behatilife, since the beginning of the Pandemic and Jessica (the creator) has guided me through some serious, groundbreaking truths. Even with just pick a card readings.

Therefore, I knew her Pluto Death & Transition Oil from her apothecary was going to help me make moves. Or at least create an intention and focus for releasing all the narratives, thoughts, & feelings that were ingrained into my memory and programming.

This was my first time using something topical outside of lotion. And even though essential oils are common, using it in this way was so new and foreign that I felt a little ashamed at first. But once I held that bottle in my hand I knew it was a miracle waiting for me to tap into my own energy and let it in.

Jessica Alexandria Wiggans is the creator and owner of the Behatilife Youtube channel (no, not sponsored by her... yet) and Apothecary. Essential oils can be used in a number of ways but I especially find it useful after a full shower. With ingredients intuitively chosen by Jess, I smelled notes of lemon, earthy herbs and added some Hawthorne Berries to make it complete.

During my ritual I became dogmatic, allowing the flow of words and thoughts crowd and spill out of my lips. Allowing them to form a prayer, an intention. Encapsulating how I so desperately wanted to let go of the pain, sadness, the doubt and constant internal battle I would go through to wrangle in more fear than not.

I pressed my index and ring fingers against my temple, my throat, my heart and even my chest to spread the warmth and liquid. Letting it fornicate into my bloodstream via the pores. Or at least that's what I mentally envisioned as my intention carried over to reality. There was even a day where I was so frustrated with going through the mental gymnastics of depression that I went to this oil for some peace.

But it did not just give me peace via an all out crying session but (I kid you not) I felt arms come from behind and hug me. I will never forget that moment, in the midst of yelling and cursing that I was sick of going through these bouts that never seemed to end. Tears were streaming, lips were fuming and I just dropped to the floor. Surrendering to what I thought was nothing at the time. Until I felt a hug come out of nowhere.

I always do a cleansing ritual, whether it's for a full moon or as a de-stressor. Usually when I know I'm going to wash my hair do I make it a part of the process. Feeling vulnerable and letting the wave of emotions ride over me became apparent that this was a part of the process. To me releasing old and tainted scars that were fragmented into perfected memories, was most needed & most experienced.

This oil is rife with commitment and intent. Though I used it to help with self-love and my healing journey, you can add it to your next ritual or wear it daily. If you're struggling with letting go and moving on, I highly recommend this oil, if not checking out the website yourself. No matter what you choose, the ingredients will be intuitively mixed together. Especially with the added help of Jessica herself.